Seeking Advise

I have been having a pretty hard time lately (the last two years 🤷🏻‍♀️) and have been really beating myself up for it. I need to write and post Hope’s birth story but can’t keep my emotions together long enough to actually type it out. I need to start exercising so I can lose this baby weight because I’m bigger than I’ve ever been in my life, but I can barely work up enough energy to keep three people alive every day. I need to do better at keeping my house tidy, but again with the energy and then I have a baby constantly attached to me and a toddler demanding constant attention. I need to play and interact with that toddler more often throughout the day and especially work on his speech, but there’s the energy thing, and the attached infant thing, and the trying to keep my house clean thing, and trying to keep my emotions together, and thinking about how I’m not exercising. If you give a mouse a cookie (if you give a mom a reason to feel bad about herself?). What I really need to do is start loving myself, but sometimes it is just so damn hard. So, moms of the internet how do you do it? How do you let go of what you aren’t succeeding at and focus on the good you are doing? What are your positive affirmations and self love techniques? How do you reassure yourself that you aren’t screwing up your kids for life? Teach me how to just be ok and be present. Help me to make a change.