Mama Feelings are Sometimes Pretty Sappy

It's late and I have lots of mushy thoughts, which is how most of my terribly infrequent blog posts begin. So here we go.  My sweet, 14 month old, rock star sleeper woke me up about 30 minutes ago screaming in his crib. The boy who would sleep a night through the apocalypse was wide awake in the middle of the night so heartbreakingly upset it made me want to cry. Cuddles and kisses cured the nightmare in a matter of minutes and my not so little baby was back asleep in no time. But I was left feeling sentimental. How on earth did he get so big? How has time gone so quickly when sometimes the days of motherhood feel long and arduous? Short as this moment of midinght snuggles (and the past year) may have been, my mind was set hoping for the both of us. I hope I am showing him my love to the fullest each day. I hope I am teaching him to be a good person. I hope he grows up to be kind. I hope he remembers that I try my best every day and not how often I lose my patience. I hope he always relies on his mama and daddy for love and support-even in the middle of the night. And as we prepare to grow our love for another little human, I hope he loves her fiercely and will always be her protector, friend, and champion. I am in awe of the love little people are capable of. I know I am getting really sappy, but it really is just so amazing to me. I have all of these hopes for my son and I have so much faith that each and every one will be and are a reality. There is also the reality of temper tantrums, picky eating, learning to share, and nap time, but that is life. We are learning  to take the good with the bad and ride the wave each day. So when my once tiny baby who is now a big toddler wakes me up in the middle of the night needing to know I am there, I will cherish that moment and have all of the over the top mom feelings to go with it. Please always be sweet and pure, my little angel boy (mostly so when you are kicking and screaming because I won't give you my phone I can still remember why I like you so much). Love, your really tired but mostly grateful mama.